Sunday, September 18, 2011

The Bug

July 4th 2011 was a special day. while everyone was celebrating the nations birthday with fireworks and sparklers, I had a different birthday to celebrate. After 7 hours of labor and an emergency c-section, my sweet baby boy entered this world. He was so tiny with thick brown hair and these amazing eyes that just captured your heart. It was the most amazing day of my life. I have never felt that much joy and love. He was just too perfect for words. I saw pure love when I saw his daddy look in his eyes, and just thanked god for giving us such a beautiful thing.

As the bug grew, so did his eyes. my sweet baby got the name "bug" because he had these hudge round eyes that just looked like they were about to pop put of his head! I never knew it was so possible to love something so much. I couldnt get ehough of him, I just wanted to hold him kiss him squeeze him and never let him go. The thought of leaving him for even a minute broke my heart. The bug had so much family that loved him that much too, we are both from large families that live so close, we used to joke and say tht family had to make appointments to see him because there was not enough time in the day!

Every moment spent with the bug was more precious than the last. as his sweet littler personality developed we just loved him more. He loved the simple things in life, sticking your tounge out at him, playing patty cake, making his feet clap, and getting raspberries on his tummy. These things all made him just smile the biggest sweetest toothless grin from ear to ear. It was truly priceless. He was such a happy baby.

On September 13th 2011 my world came crashing down. It was the worst day of my life. While we were sleeping the bug went to be with the angels. It all happened so fast, but it felt like a car-crash in slow motion. I lost it. I didnt think I could go on. The hardest part was learning how to live without him. I have now made it my life goal, from this point forward to live for my son, to spread the word about his short life, and to do whatever it takes to prevent this from happening to anyone else. I now live for the bug, every second, every minute, every day.

1 comment:

  1. You, bug, and his family will always my prayers. You all are so strong.